I’ve been pretty sick since the end of February. I didn’t really start to feel better until the beginning of this month. I even had to go to the hospital, so no really creative stuff got done. I was hoping to do Camp Nano this month but it didn’t end up happening. I decided after all that, that I would take a small break from the editing I was doing on the novel I finished last Summer. I will talk a little about what my plans are for the upcoming months in this post.
The first thing I plan to work on is the novel I finished last summer. I’m about halfway through editing it, but it’s proving to be quite hard to edit. I’m just not feeling very happy with how this turned out. I keep feeling like it needs a complete re-write but I honestly don’t have the fortitude or energy to go through that story again. I may just try to get it to its best state and release it for a very limited run. That way people who wanted to read it could get it, but it wouldn’t be something I heavily promote.
The other thing I am working on is a new poem and short storybook, I’m a little under halfway done with that. I’ve been enjoying my heavily allegory-filled angst stuff recently. It’s a little easier for me to get in that headspace than a long novel. I have had a little more luck getting this writing done than other things I am thinking of.
The other thing I am working on is the NaNoWriMo project I did last November, it’s sitting about halfway done currently. I like this story a lot and I think it’s superior in most ways to the long novel I am currently editing. I feel a little scared to continue it, I’m having the delightful feeling that I am going to ruin what I have already done. My imposter syndrome has been rampant, and the physical effects of being sick for over a month kind of left my energy low. These two things together have made it incredibly hard to write or even draw or work on music. Also for a series of reasons there have been fewer writing sprints by people I enjoy, which is one of the ways I used to get into work, I guess I need to find some new streamers to write with.
I did end up plotting out a book I’m probably going to start when I finish the previously mentioned three projects. It’s in the early phases right now, but I really like what I have so far. It’s all magic and mysterious surroundings. I really love writing Fantasy but I just haven’t prioritized it lately. The two books other than the poem book are YA Fiction and YA Fiction Thriller(?). I also have another Fantasy book in the works, I’ve even written two chapters, but that one is going to need a lot of work and planning, so I’m saving it for a time I feel comfortable just working on one project at a time.
I have a small idea that I’m also doing research into, but it is just a nugget right now. The story is based on fictionalized real events. It will probably take place in the early 2000s and have to do with Internet Culture and Fanfiction, but also have an element of crime in it. Sort of similar to the book I’m editing but completely different subject matter. right now I’m seeking out old Fanfiction and accounts of popular creators in the early days of the Internet to help me weave a story. It’s been a lot of fun, and it’s something I can do while resting. I know I should just be resting while resting…but I literally slept all day every day for a few weeks, so I’m so ready to do something.
I find myself sleeping all the time still, and feeling burnt out and uncreative. But I know I’ll get back to it sooner rather than later. I did put out two songs on the Frost Flowers YouTube. They are called Laromen and Talking to Myself. So a little bit of my new content is out there.
Another thing I’ve been doing to rest and combat burnout is playing videogames, namely EverQuest. I play a Bard and it’s very relaxing. I also started to replay Dragon Age 2, and I am trying to play Elden Ring.
I know no one really reads this blog, but I am keeping it for myself so I can keep track of my progress and keep tabs on my feelings on the way to creating things.
I hope if you are reading this you are doing well.